A few years ago I was desperately trying to stop masturbating but it was really hard, for some I only felt even more horny and aroused by denying my own pleasure and that made me wanna touch so bad.

Eventually I found out about chastity kink and an app called Chaster where you could be locked or lock someone, so I tried both and loved both,the feeling of controlling the pleasure of a person while also giving them tasks to do is really good, not only that but being controlled was equally fun, especially with the right keyholder

It's was the way Blowjobs were depicted in movies an TV. Always out of frame, often a hand on the head. And most of the time it was shown as a degrading act which made it taboo in my mind.